Posts Tagged ‘Nhím’
Oh! Even thought I can’t have you …
You are in my mind
Even if I can’t touch you …
Even thought this dream will never come true …
Even if I can’t say it …
Even if I hide from afar …
You know, I do
I Love You
Even if you don’t know who I am …
Oh, baby don’t you know?
You don’t even know my name
My heart flutters as I look at you through the night
Oh, so beautiful
The photo of you that I hold in my hand
My psychotic whispers of love have been swept within the world’s cheerful praise of you
You probably can’t hear it, right?
Even if I die, it won’t work out, right?
Of course, even in my next life, you probably won’t know me then either
I can’t turn back now, because I want you too much
I clutch my pillows tightly as I yearn for your kiss tonight
Today is probably our first meeting …
You always ask that sort of question
I’ll try to converse with your fleeting presence again today
It’s always the same, yet
I’ll be shaking again as I greet you
Even if the whole world stops listening to me …
You’ll be there to hear me out
I want you to shake my hardening form as I watch you get father away from me
Far away, far away, you become a speck in the distance
From now, where can I see you again?
I wonder why you’re not smiling today?
I hope it was nothing serious
I can’t bear to look at your grief stricken face
I’d rather it was me who was in the pain
But the fact that I can’t do that is such a pity
I want you to greet me happily for once
Ask me how I’ve been and then embrace me as I try to answer you
You, whom I can’t have, feel, not embrace …
I’ll be meeting you again, in my dream, tonight
Even if it’s just my dreams and people tell me that it won’t work or laugh at my love …
Even if people tell me that I’m insane and try to erase my world …
You are mine, so why do I keep losing you to all those undeserving people?
No I can never do it, I’m going to make you look at only me from now on
I’ll give you everything and when you kiss me, I’ll give you the world
I will trap you inside my cold, dark chest so you can’t escape from me
You are my star. I’m your number one fan.
Baby please, take me hand.
Boys and girls who have fallen in psychotic love say oh, oh, oh
Boys and girls who have fallen in idiotic love say oh, oh, oh
Boys and girls who have fallen in hopeless love say oh, oh, oh
Boys and girls who have fallen in love like mine say oh, oh, oh
Even if you don’t know who I am …
This is the lyric of the song “Fan” by Epik High. I love it. And sometimes, I feel like my love is the same as his love – psychotic, idiotic and hopeless love.
Well, it’s new year already, isn’t it? I expected to compose this post sooner, but didn’t have a chance to. However, it is not too late. Am I right? First and foremost, I wish you all a happy new year. I hope 2010 will be the year of your luck, success, and happiness.
I noticed that everybody was summarizing their life in 2009. I was going to write a big summary about everything in the year, but at the end, I changed my mind and decided to focus on something new, instead of the old-boring 2009.
However, 2009 is still a memorable year. It’s not secret that I’m not good at memorizing so I can’t remember exactly where and when the activity done. And this is the list of things that rocked and things that sucked, in no particular order.
Things that rocked
- I’m 20 and had a great birthday, ever. Thanks to my love, who encouraged and supported me a lot.
- Still in relationship with my girl. We expected to break apart within the year, but It didn’t happen.
- Joined Tumblr and had a mini meet-up with those guys. The good is I had a lot of friends there, and they are all talented guys. The bad is I got distracted and didn’t do my work well.
- I had some remarkable events in se7enclan. We had great time in a trip to Vinh and a number of parties. Se7enclan is, somehow, my another family with all of my homies. Keep it up, I love you guys.
- Launched FMoN, a tiny tool to check if someone were following you in the famous social network: Twitter. Thanks Mr Ban, Nguyen Duc for encouraging me, right after the launch. Thanks Kien 44, Quang Anh Do, Diego and all the guys in Tumblr for commenting and suggesting me. It’s so sad that I didn’t update anything since then, so at the moment, FMoN still in beta with a tiny function. That sucks! But don’t worry, it will be updated soon. I promise.
- Released Nhim Vol.3: My Autumn – the compilation album for my birthday. I remixed most of the songs in the album, and it surprised me that those tracks are not too bad at all. Thanks you all for supporting me. Luv ya. Oh, and for you guys who curious which my favorite tracks are. They are #1 (Memories of My Last Autumn) and #8 (Last Birthday).
- Joined two course in my work place. Thank God the course was so damn interesting that gave me a lot of designing experiment. I’m really confident now.
- Decided to pause working and focus on studying. Actually, I DID NOT manage time good enough. I had been in a bad condition and extremely stressful for a long time. I think I’m still owe my boss, Mr Tien Do Xuan, a “sorry”. However, in that terrible condition, I made a good move. I bought a lot of books, from designing guide to programming guide; from time management to project portfolio management… It’s great that I read books everyday. For your recommendation, I would like to pick “The Smashing Book” (by Smashing Magazine), “iPhone SDK Develoment” (by Dudney and Adamson), “Manage Your Project Portfolio” (by Rothman)
- Switch to Greeny theme, a wordpress theme for my blog. I love minimal design, and I do love green. This is my most favorite theme, ever. In order to complete this theme, I had to work with Last.FM API and Tumblr API. It was so fun.
- Received a lot of cards and presents from my girl. I was still so happy, almost all the year. Because of your cards. Thank you so so much. I love you.
Things that sucked
- Smoked again. That really sucks. I can feel my health is so bad, at the moment. I will giving up smoking, in this year. I promise.
- My laptop died unexpectedly, got fixed and finally, died again. So, I advise you not to buy Dell laptop, no matter what kind of laptop.
- I didn’t have a good result, at university. Studying must be focused more and more, I think.
- Got a lot of troubles with my family. Seems that they never know me, never.
- Didn’t have even a date with Linh and Huyen, my two best friends. Time is always my enemy. I just want to say “sorry” and promise a date, in 2010. You know, I love you two, so so much.
- Didn’t finished anything, actually. All of my idea is still idea, no less no more.
I don’t want to think 2009 as a terrible year, so the list would be end here. Hopefully everything will be fine, in the new year, 2010.
I don’t usually blog in English. Mostly because nobody want to read foreign language. Well, this post is an unusual one. I don’t want everybody read it, just for some of my friends. This post is not dedicated to anyone. My hope is that you can know me better.
OK. It’s fucking straight that I’m easy to go down, easy to get angry… But so what? Is this a normal thing? Why do you all complain about this? It may not comfort you at first, but actually, it’s the way things are. Life is not only about bright victories, but also about dark failures. If you don’t like me, just ignore. I don’t want a fucking relationship that each one get bored and tired day by day.
I hate complicated things. You can ask me for whatever, but please make it clear and simple. I’m honest enough to help you but again, please make it clear and simple.
It doesn’t make sense if you hate me or not.
It doesn’t make sense if you help me or not.
But it would be great if we know each other better.
Just a few words to make it clear between you all and me. I’m sorry for my offensiveness but that’s my true-self. Accept it and be my best friend.
Nhím CD gồm những bài hát do mình tuyển chọn và có thể mix lại để dành tặng mọi người. Mỗi bài hát có một ý nghĩa riêng, với một phong cách riêng. Cũng giống như mỗi người mình tặng, có một tính cách riêng. Thường thì mình publish vào sinh nhật hằng năm, nhưng lười quá, thành ra phải chuyển sang ngày 18.10 (ngày đẹp nữa, hehe). Vì chỉ được tối đa 70 phút (1 CD mà) cho nên mình phải giới hạn số người được tặng. Biết đâu bạn lại có trong danh sách được tặng đấy. Đón chờ nhé.
Như đã hứa, hôm nay ngày đẹp 13.10, mình up track 3 lên mọi người nghe thử.
Bài này tặng riêng cho Kiên cu con trong se7en clan, đơn giản vì nick nó là slave =]
Nói vậy thôi, thực ra trong nhóm, Kiên là người quan tâm đến bạn bè, nhiệt tình và cũng hơi bốc đồng. Đi nhậu luôn làm chức canh nồi và rót rượu, cho nên mới sinh ra cái nick slave.
Thôi không huyên thuyên nữa, nghe nhạc nè.
Vậy là mình cũng 20 tuổi rồi, cái tuổi đánh dấu bản ngã, đánh dấu cái mốc của sự trưởng thành và là cái tuổi mà mọi người vẫn bảo là đẹp nhất của cuộc đời. Mình không cảm nhận thấy quá nhiều sự khác biệt trong cuộc sống, nhưng mình biết rằng, mình đã trưởng thành, có thể tự lập, tự tin bước vào đời, không sợ những va vấp nữa …
Đây là sinh nhật đầu tiên mình có nhiều cảm xúc đan xen như vậy. Vui có, buồn có, thất vọng có mà tiếc nuối cũng có. Vui vì luôn có bạn bè người thân bên cạnh, giúp đỡ, chia sẻ và ủng hộ mình những năm qua. Vui vì mình cảm thấy tự tin và trưởng thành. Buồn vì 20 tuổi, mà thực sự những gì mình làm được có lẽ là quá ít. Những dự định, những ý tưởng, những khát vọng … chẳng có cái nào thành hiện thực cả … Có lẽ mình chỉ nên đặt những dự định nhỏ nhỏ, dễ làm mà thôi :D
Trước mắt sẽ là mix xong album Nhím vol 3: My Autumn và trang web cho nó (đúng ra thì hôm nay phải xong rồi, nhưng tiếc là mình không có đủ thời gian làm. Đành hẹn bạn vào ngày 18.10 nhé). Sau đó là hoàn thành bản thiết kế tại lớp xHTML, CSS. Xa hơn là hoàn thành trang chơi bài online (Beta – thử nghiệm nhỏ của mình). Xa hơn nữa là cố gắng để đạt được Zend PHP 5 Certification, rồi còn học Objective-C, Cocoa, lập trình cho iPhone và ruby … Chà, thực sự là không hề đơn giản và nhẹ nhàng.
Hơi buồn 1 chút là mình chỉ nhận được vài tin nhắn lèo tèo thôi à. Chắc mọi người còn bận ngủ (1 rưỡi sáng rồi :D), hoặc quên mình rồi cũng nên.
Thôi không huyên thuyên nhiều nữa, mình chỉ viết tạm vài dòng, coi như placeholder vậy thôi. Cảm ơn mọi người rất nhiều ;-) <3
